patience

I would love to live like a river flows,

carried by the surprise of its own unfolding

-John O'Donohue

Oh it sounds so wonderful...having patience, allowance, and forgiveness with yourself and your life.

But it really doesn't feel wonderful at all, it actually hurts to do what is most natural.

Another paradox, of course, that our lives should flow with the experiences that we have been given but not fretting over what could or might happen. We are, in a way, subject to the things that we can't control, by how we react.