2.14.2014

intricate.







sometimes I think that we over-simply things.

we want everything to be quick & now,
and that impatience can spill over
from work and deadlines and such,
into our relationships.

it's so detrimental that I get tongue-tied thinking of it.
it sounds dramatic.

but I know that the way that we speak has such an amazing effect,
and most of the time we barely have a clue what we're saying.

we'll tell a friend that we like/don't like something they did.
we'll say so flippantly,
so carelessly,
and the next moment we'll forget we said it.

fast forward,
this friend has dwelt on that word for weeks and things blow up for them in an unfathomable way.

it's ridiculous,
words shouldn't be so effective,
so often.
but they are,
that's the fact,
and we have to deal with it.

we have to deal with the fact that  we need to think,
really think about all the things that we're saying,
or want to say,
to someone.


the thing is,
if we don't do this,
we turn into careless crazies who always think they're right.
never feel the need to check themselves
and ask if what they're saying really needs to be said.

and that's the intricate,
detailed,
ridiculously elaborate part of it all.
that we have to make time,
to take time,
to make sure we're being uplifting.
it can take one silly comment
to ruin someone's life.

you're held accountable for that,
whether you want to believe it or not,
you are.
and it's sad and its hurtful,
but that thought always makes me want to be more thoughtful,
all the time.

"a gentle tongue is a tree of life,
but perverseness in it breaks the spirit"
Proverbs 15:4





2.08.2014

the unassuming.




I try to imagine a world where I'm constantly
and only inspired by God.
It's difficult to even comprehend,
with so many pictures and quotes and all sorts of things
thrown my way each and every day,

Imagining a life where I didn't have all these interactions
(superficial or not), but was inspired daily by pure Truth.
It might not look as pretty,
or feel as special,
or be easily interpreted.

It might not be like a fire-cracker everyday,
it may take more time.

But when it does happen,
its more...real
more full
and more packed with meaning.






The unassuming isn't as easy to find.
It's hidden,
it requires digging,
time and effort.

In a world where time and effort are nonexistent,
the unassuming is even more rare,
more ready to be seen and hunted for.

If that means saying "no" to the silly babbles thrown my way, then I'll do it.
I'm done with inspiration for inspiration's sake,
for "finding things" just to make sure I'm in line with the rest,
that I know what's up.
It's meaningless and fruitless and only makes me more like everyone else than I was before.

So now the tough part is the fight,
the fight to not fall into easy, comforting categories
where I'm fed by pictures and sentences.

It's time to fall back in with the True Source of all that is creative and good and pure.