עָמַק

It always amazes me that I'm able to learn in every type of situation. Even the crappiest of circumstances can bring unexpected growth that couldn't have come in another way or from another time.

I'm glad to be able to look back at the time I've had now and be grateful for the new ways that my character has developed.

And isn't that what we're supposed to do...at the core?
Enjoy the life that we've been given in this crazy-beautiful, miraculous world, and that means the depth as well.

Sometimes I think that I can mistake things that are full of depth and pain and struggle as dark when really they're just full of an emotion or experience that I haven't come to know.
And that's not bad, it doesn't mean that it's a dark situation just because it looks different to what I know.

Like in the movie Chocolat, the young boy has a "darker" side to him, struggling with oppressing who he really is from his mother. He's an amazing artist at such a young age, but he knows that his depictions of death are not what he "should" be doing in his mother's eyes. But another relative realizes his talent and his need to express things that are going on in his life. She encourages not darkness in a bad sense, but depth in the way that it releases him from his feelings and helps him to grow.

It's such a vulnerable and beautiful thing to be able to embrace depth (עָמַק).
When contradictions come up in life it's easy to blame yourself and treat your own life with a sort of disdain because you're not who or what you thought you were.
But being able to be flexible, to move with life and show grace to your soul and your self shows wisdom.

"Beauty likes to keep away from the public glare.

 It likes to find a neglected or abandoned place, 

for it knows that it is only here it will meet the kind of light 

that repeats its shape, dignity, and nature."

-Ezra Pound