10.23.2011

forever open




sure
though my ears are numb
sure
face smashed to the glass
sure
eyes set straight.

not much to count on,
not much to hold.
anything assured
tries to slip away

be sure
face determined
sure
all unspoken
sure
now forever open.









10.21.2011

cotton fields.










Such a fascinating plant.





10.05.2011

everyday people






I am no better and neither are you
We're all the same whatever we do
You love me you hate me
You know me and then
Still can't figure out the bag I'm in
I am everyday people








10.04.2011

the habit of inferiority










taking time







I guess I've been thinking about this for a while, but *this* article really confirmed it.

My computer broke down for a bit and to be honest I wasn't too disappointed.
I had plans to get a typewriter and I even drove an hour away to see one
(that had already been purchased, sadly), but all in all it was actually quite
 liberating not having my laptop around me all the time.
I used the family computer, but without all my *favorited websites and
 pictures to fiddle around with I didn't linger as much as I usually do.

So, now that I have my laptop back I'm....well I don't quite know.
I'm glad (because the screen is much bigger), but also I realize how much time I spend with it.
The addition of Pinterest to my life has  made everything different as well.






I notice it with myself and with others, that we feel like we have to be constantly entertained.
Whether it's our phones with internet, or checking updates from people it just seems over-kill after a while.

I don't feel like I have to go to the extreme of completely removing myself from this technology-filled world,
but I do feel like I have to be constantly aware of my time.

It's one of those things that you don't usually think about until it's gone...
until you've spent an hour or two on the internet and realize that you really didn't do anything.

It's such a hard balance, keeping up with what's going on and trends in whatever circles you follow,
and then just living as well.


If we don't put in the effort to make sure we're present in each moment, then we'll regret it;
we'll regret decisions we made and then at some point it will become a life of regret.
Hopefully not to this point:



"I would prefer to be able to say: 'I am satiated, 
what is given to taste in this life, I have tasted.'
But I am like someone in a window who draws aside a curtain
To look at a feast he does not comprehend."

Czeslaw Milosv (A New Province)





10.01.2011

stranger/home







where are you stranger
where are you home.

are they different
or just when alone.

the smell of the grass
and the light on this page

what do they say
of lost and unafraid.

trite to look in
or better to search.

only one Divine
sometimes too close for words.

wait for the moment
when the leaves define the clear.

make sure you listen
sounds drifting in the air.